crash the boredom. blog.

this is the nth time i tried to make a blog. i was able to write none for the longest time. but today i am bored so i thought of doing something worth my precious spare time.

since i learned how to identify my feelings, i can say i have not been sad for some time now. Thank God. :) it's just boredom i must say. just like those other days when i have no one to talk to. understandably it's bedtime when i am up and people are taking pleasure in sleeping at night during weekends..mga vampire friends time bumawi ng tulog. :) though i still work at night, so far my social life improved and friendship is actually in so much action. and my special relationship? it's at its best.

it's happiness and full of hearts. ample arguments (as expected) but very little fights. i say we have been more giving, understanding, compromising, and in love. it taught me so much to mature with the big word WILLINGLY. it is because i have faith in this relationship. i am now trusting. i am way more giving than ever. i have accepted that sacrifices must be taken and accepted. i now know when to let go and ignore any unwanted situation that may give me reason to be mad. EASY is the magic word accompanied by the magic hug. it's effective, kahit walang laman ang tyan. :D

at this point i am now relaxed as i was able to entertain myself in making this blog and sharing a piece of my happy life. till tomorrow, whoever have discovered this blog. :D

i love My Savior
my Mom and Tatay
my now asleep brothers
friends
close friends
RTS team
those friends who truly love me

and of course...
puy.

oh my siomai

If i choose love my mommy cries..
but if i choose mother, my love cries.
- dal ja' spring

spell B-A-B-Y L-O-V-E

wash away my worries

hindi pa rin ok today. why am i so worried? is it just because of the monthly visitor or will there really be something else? do i want to know? rest or vacation is not an option. i dont think i need a break. i need to calm down. not really relax like relax - beach - chill. i'm being bothered by several negative thoughts. that caused me to forget what day it is today. i thought it's only wednesday..hello earth calling me..it's already friday. oh my. how can it be so fast? well ok..i slept the whole day yesterday. and so i missed thursday.

mom and art said i should always pray for safety and peace of mind. my bad. i pray less lately. i need to reassess my faith and work it out to make it stronger.

i'm sorry papa Jesus.

25

as a child, i had so many wishes, some did not come true. and so as the 25th year is coming closer, i am remembering those nights i was praying hard that one day all of them will be granted.

listed below are the top 25 wishes of my life - let's have them the support way..
Few are still in "Pending" status or "Work in Progress".
Some were "closed / resolved".
And others, forgotten - "we are NOT checking this".

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hello kitty (the orig one, ok?) stuffed toy (i always dreamt of having one but until now mahal pa rin sya) - and mahal naman kasi.

lego set - (yung nasa timba at may board pa) - too "matured" for this. - take note: not OLD ok?

little twin star pencil case - my gaaad. i was in grade 1. usong uso ang automatic pencil case na maraming pinipindot. total heartbreak. choosing between the F**k*ng thermo lunch box and this pencil case. potek. as young as 7, my heart learned to let go. waaah!

big toy car - too matured for this

red hello kitty backpack

trip to Japan for hello kitty

go to the US

elmo stuffed toy

barbie house

doll house

big toy house where i can sleep and stay

nung mga grade 3 ako uso kasi sila so... ------> maging love interest ng gwapings! ahahaha! forget this please.

big house / palace / own car with driver / body guards, yayas - in short maging senyorita / anak-mayaman. - PENDING asa!!

prince charming (when i was a kid; syempre anak-mayaman rin dapat haha!) - another PENDING asa!!

loyal responsible loving boyfriend (teenage wish. hmm ang aga lumande.) - resolved

tulips and shiny blue balloons.

red watch - w.i.p

kickers school shoes like the ones of tin gab back in high school. (ano ba yan hahah!)

overnight with friends / out-of-town - resolved

keds shoes - resolved

roller blades - resolved

giordano wallet (yung uso nung grade 6. nagkaron ako tapos haay nawala.)

LV or Gucci bag. - pending

grandioso'ng wedding. - referred / open ticket

and lastly, to buy myself that black watch, that nike shoes, & a nice bag (all in one day).

what the f

did i just say not** checking?!?!?! my gawd!!!!
my bad. i'm so sorry.
and i'm like...laughing at myself now.

i hate

i went to a marathon. had to wake up at 4am but fell asleep around 2. 1st day of my period. and so when i was running...oh please help!!!!! went back to the apartment around 8. ate breakfast with colleagues. slept for an hour i guess. lunch time i went home since I should. on my way home, mom text'd me it's ok that i stay in my place until afternoon since they'll be staying in the province until evening. an hour after, i arrived here so hungry. good thing i called up bonyat and asked her to cook food. i slept and woke up 430 finding my mom's message they arent coming home. it's raining. hard. and water's slowly dripping from the ceiling down to the wall. :( what i have for dinner is what i had for lunch.

i could've waited for a little more time..


errrrrr!

OPM ang lola nyo

where can i possibly be..at work.
alone
addressing issues
blogging
surfing
listening to music
disturbed by the vacuum cleaner
planning to go to Batangas later.
or maybe push it next week

i am listening to this old song and thinking to put its lyrics here..common thing i do whenever I'm touched by a song. but now..

songs for future reference (whatever that may be)

1. i will always stay in love with you this way
2. in my life
3. when i met you (haha!)
4. till i met you
5. i think i'm in love (ahihi. kiligers!)
6. more today than yesterday
7. both in love
8. here and now
9. love you so (not OPM)
10. i'm yours
11. i could not ask for more
    

ito hindi kasama sa bilang pero wahaha favorite ko. swear.

THE WAY WE WERE.
lalo yung intro..."sa cheeks, sa lips, sa eyes, sa nose. may pahawak hawak ka pa sa kamay..." HAHAHAHAHAHA =P wagiiiii!

shocks!! this one im kilig with.Rey Valera's PANGAKO SAYO.."For better or for worst.."
but not including it on the list.

..that would be for today. i'll update as soon as i hear a potential w.song.

wait....im not changing my status anytime soooooon. ok? this is just all part of my dream.

i must..i must..

i saved this here so i have easy access whenever i feel the need to downsize my butt and thighs.

ok so join me and let's do that stretch stretch stretch and those squeeze squeeze squeeze.
i hope i find time to do this..
:)

stressed out

for two weeks now, work had been so stressful for me. next week wont be much different, i guess, since it's business as usual for support kiddos. i was spending more than 10 hours a day resolving this "simple" client issue.

i was on SL the other day but found myself working at a late hour. if i don't care then i could've just remained at home watching my Korean movies. oh but my "dedication" kept me awake for long hours.

hmmmp!

i need a break. i dooooo!
my old self is eaten away by depression.

depression - psychiatric disorder: a psychiatric disorder showing symptoms such as persistent feelings of hopelessness, dejection, poor concentration, lack of energy, inability to sleep, and, sometimes, suicidal tendencies

Microsoft® Encarta®

small blogs

why my blogs all short? because i'm a busy head. but i like to write a long one. next time maybe. actually, i have lots of pics to upload but just can't gather them all yet.

ok. back to work.

beer for bags

i got a new Crumpler bag this afternoon. ☺ nice! i'll upload the picture on my free time.

"ian got me flowers ☺"

it's never too late to say "Thank you!!".

im at work.it's raining and it's valentine's.

excited.

i'll be posting my pagudpud pics soon. =)

rubik's and roy

here's my brother so eager to have himself on cam as he makes each face of rubik's a uniform color. it was my idea to take the video so i can upload it here and show ♥ a sample of roy's "talent". he finished in about 2mins and 49sec. mabagal pa yun accdg to him. he was supposedly joining a rubik's contest but wasnt able to because he has to finish daw a science project.

so here he is...watch it!

..inx..
may epal na mga nagsasalita sa bg. haha!

past, present, and future.

i got this from carl (multiply).
nagsabi ako sayo ha! :D thanks!

just want to share this cause some part of it i find true, specially the R.E.A.S.O.N thing. tears fell coming after my "Oh My Gosh..". eh ganon talaga. people come and go. though it has been a year, masakit pa rin. kahit pa it's my damn choice. some won't understand. di daw makaget over. should i force it? kiber kung ayaw maniwala. for the SEASON. i hope this one's not just for now. ang masasabi ko lang..presently, i'm lucky. i'm so loved.

well, so here goes..
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People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to Do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be.Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is Done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.Some people come into your life for a SEASON,because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done.They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it; it is real, but only for a season.LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,things you must build, for us to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that LOVE is BLIND but FRIENDSHIP is CLAIRVOYANT.Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.
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sabi ko na.

i would've been a manghuhula kung kinareer ko lang ito.

this morning, ☺told me we'll have this joint blog. well now..there's none.
minsan kasi pag sinabi ginagawa. or sana sa mismong time na yun, i pushed it. loser me! umasa lang ako sa wala.

never will i mention this again. i'll wait though.

IF by chance (swerte ko lang) you read this, you may or may not make it happen..it's up to you.

sakto lang.

BOOOOLAGA!!! hehe! welcome to me!

..and welcome to this pusa.

i was creating an account here when my tatay called me. tignan ko raw, ang ganda. well, she is. nice lines and color. i took pictures of her and uploaded them in multiply. she is hiding somewhere and not making any sound. asleep perhaps.

yihee! ate saw you....i guessed it right! she's behind the pile of my highschool books. they thought she already left. i dont think so. she can't escape me hehe! ;) ate sonia told me a mommy pusa is meowing outside. looking for your baby?! she's with me. hehehe!

mom didn't like her. or maybe bitter for her little baby booboo was brought to batangas last Christmas. but really. this one's cute and tubby. i'd like her to stay only if mom would welcome her. bogart named her tingting ortiz. short for "kutingting". haha! following ming ming's name. hehe! nice one!