random thoughts:
im never excited to celebrate Christmas with the family.....
bakit nga ba lagi na lang masakit ang araw na ito?
bakit pag may occassion kailangan hindi masaya?
ilang taon na rin akong may malamyang pasko.
ilang taon na rin akong may lungkot sa puso tuwing pasko.
26 na yata.
i cried while hearing the 830 mass.
it is the first.
after US i will decide if i "can or cannot"
..find my happy christmas outside this house.
..ignore the guilt of leaving mom
you know best....just the best way to ruin this day.
i am l♥ved
true-to-life drama princess.
Friday, December 24, 2010
Friday, August 13, 2010
i. my. me.
..why am i bothered
..why am i sad
..why like this
i feel restless
i am sad
i hate
my skin, cold
my heart, frozen
my mind, tired
save me
protect me
free me
love me
i should be happy.
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i feel so not right these past days.
God, i'm so sorry.
blessings are all around me
and to feel worried is too much to accept.
Please heal my soul
Please clear my mind
Please wash my heart from all the sadness.
Please guard me always
sorry i have lots of requests.
i know i am so loved, but...
i am sorry.
..why am i sad
..why like this
i feel restless
i am sad
i hate
my skin, cold
my heart, frozen
my mind, tired
save me
protect me
free me
love me
i should be happy.
==========================
i feel so not right these past days.
God, i'm so sorry.
blessings are all around me
and to feel worried is too much to accept.
Please heal my soul
Please clear my mind
Please wash my heart from all the sadness.
Please guard me always
sorry i have lots of requests.
i know i am so loved, but...
i am sorry.
Monday, July 12, 2010
my darling
my dear, why did you leave? you made mommy so sad. i am still crying since this morning. still wishing this is all just a dream. i miss your sweet eyes, honey, the way you look at me. it's so painful. i miss you so much. i thought we'll gonna stay together for a long time. why do you have to leave us. i miss you honey. i miss you.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Saturday, November 14, 2009
crash the boredom. blog.
this is the nth time i tried to make a blog. i was able to write none for the longest time. but today i am bored so i thought of doing something worth my precious spare time.
since i learned how to identify my feelings, i can say i have not been sad for some time now. Thank God. :) it's just boredom i must say. just like those other days when i have no one to talk to. understandably it's bedtime when i am up and people are taking pleasure in sleeping at night during weekends..mga vampire friends time bumawi ng tulog. :) though i still work at night, so far my social life improved and friendship is actually in so much action. and my special relationship? it's at its best.
it's happiness and full of hearts. ample arguments (as expected) but very little fights. i say we have been more giving, understanding, compromising, and in love. it taught me so much to mature with the big word WILLINGLY. it is because i have faith in this relationship. i am now trusting. i am way more giving than ever. i have accepted that sacrifices must be taken and accepted. i now know when to let go and ignore any unwanted situation that may give me reason to be mad. EASY is the magic word accompanied by the magic hug. it's effective, kahit walang laman ang tyan. :D
at this point i am now relaxed as i was able to entertain myself in making this blog and sharing a piece of my happy life. till tomorrow, whoever have discovered this blog. :D
i love My Savior
my Mom and Tatay
my now asleep brothers
friends
close friends
RTS team
those friends who truly love me
and of course...
puy.
since i learned how to identify my feelings, i can say i have not been sad for some time now. Thank God. :) it's just boredom i must say. just like those other days when i have no one to talk to. understandably it's bedtime when i am up and people are taking pleasure in sleeping at night during weekends..mga vampire friends time bumawi ng tulog. :) though i still work at night, so far my social life improved and friendship is actually in so much action. and my special relationship? it's at its best.
it's happiness and full of hearts. ample arguments (as expected) but very little fights. i say we have been more giving, understanding, compromising, and in love. it taught me so much to mature with the big word WILLINGLY. it is because i have faith in this relationship. i am now trusting. i am way more giving than ever. i have accepted that sacrifices must be taken and accepted. i now know when to let go and ignore any unwanted situation that may give me reason to be mad. EASY is the magic word accompanied by the magic hug. it's effective, kahit walang laman ang tyan. :D
at this point i am now relaxed as i was able to entertain myself in making this blog and sharing a piece of my happy life. till tomorrow, whoever have discovered this blog. :D
i love My Savior
my Mom and Tatay
my now asleep brothers
friends
close friends
RTS team
those friends who truly love me
and of course...
puy.
Friday, October 9, 2009
oh my siomai
If i choose love my mommy cries..
but if i choose mother, my love cries.
- dal ja' spring
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